Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Olive You to Love Me.

Over the past week and a half or so I have really started to question who I am and why I do the things that I do. The things that I choose to do with my time started innocently and became mineralized and attached to my being. I wonder sometimes why my dad consistently wakes up at six am, goes golfing on Thursdays, and hates George Clooney with a passion. The fact of the matter is, he has had years and years of life to fall into his preferences and the routine he's accustomed to.

I too, am a creature of habit. I drink coffee every morning (I've switched to decaf), default to Paul Simon "Graceland" when I don't know what else to listen to, and obsess over Valentine's Day. Yeah, you heard me.

By all accounts, it doesn't make sense.

I'm not dating. I'm not looking to date. I'm not bitter (anymore) about past circumstances and experiences that have callused my poor little heart. I have to also add that the callusing isn't just because of others- I've just as often hurt myself because of fear or uncertainty. YIKES. What a mess I am. But I LOVE Valentine's Day, my friends.

I'm not as attached to the idea of romance as I am to the concept of LOVE. Love, Love, Love.



Last Valentine's Day I drew Valentines for my friends that were heart-shaped and either had a robot, David Bowie, a tea cup, or Thoreau's cabin at Walden Pond. Each one had a cheesily-wonderful phrase that tied (however distantly) to Valentine's Day. For example, the Bowie cards said, "Oh! You Pretty Things! Happy Valentine's Day." Cheesy, fun, something I gave to as many friends as I could to let them know that I cared. So, I guess that's what attracts me to Valentine's Day. To paraphrase what was said in the excessively-cast-highly-acclaimed-mainstream-holiday-film "Love Actually"- Christmas is the time to tell people that you love them. So is Valentine's Day, and it's much more straightforward because of all the cupid dyecuts on bulletin boards and cheap milk chocolate candy boxes on the shelves of drugstores. Even my cold un-romantic heart can't deny that I have love for people. All kinds of people.

Back to Valentine cards. This year I took on a new feat: carving linoleum to make a stamp. I had a little too much fun with this. And took a few too many nicks out of my fingers.




If you want one, I can send you one. Just email me your address.

2 comments:

RacheldHurley said...

carving linoleum is one of my favorite pastimes. I'm all too familiar with the nicks and cuts in fingers, too. and I LOVED getting your valentine card.

E.Neckers said...

Okay, I want to comment on your blog SO bad, but for some reason because the comment thing is "embedded" in the blog I can't. It only works with a pop out comment screen. Make sense?

Let's carve linoleum this summer. Done and done-er.